I am back!
I know it's been half a year since i've been here. Way too many changes in my life, and i doubt a single post would suffice.. and since i have a lot of time in my hand, jobless at the time being, and nowhere to gash my emotions, i've decided to start blogging faithfully again, and hopefully, this lasts longer (:
A levels are finally over and done with, and i'm pretty disappointed with myself. It wasn't my full 100% and i really wish i could have pushed myself harder, but well, it's done like i said, might as well just get over the disappointment.
Lately, well rather, for the past few months, i've been feeling lost. I miss the person i used to be. I used to love myself, and the person i was. The free spirited, carefree person, who didnt gave two fucks about others. I don't hate myself now, but I am just, different. Maybe it's for the best, and I know I've become a better person in certain aspects, most definitely yes, but that's just made me lose my sense of identity. That one thing that made me, ME.
On a good note, i met the most amazing guy, and it has been a great year with him. Officially 5 months and 9 days. I see a future with him, actually I don't know if it's too early to decide, but I love him, more than anyone who's been in and out of my life, that's for sure. He makes me happy, he's tolerant with me and he adores me...
and i guess i better be off to cuddle on my bed, a long day tmr and i need atleast an hour to roll around my bed before i finally doze off.
Nights
Give me hope, that everything is all worth it.
